What have I learned from transitioning? I can’t overstate the biggest joy, which is really seeing yourself. I know I look different to others, but to me I’m just starting to look like myself. It’s indescribable, because I’m just like, there I am. And thank God. Here I am. So the greatest joy is just being able to feel present, literally, just to be present. To go out in a group of new people and be able to engage in a way where I didn’t feel this constant sensation to flee from my body, this never-ending sensation of anxiety and nervousness and wanting out.
When I say I couldn’t have ever imagined feeling that way, I mean that with every sense of me.
-Elliot Page in Esquire
This could be said about multiple instances of transitioning. It sounds a lot like the Christian "to be born again."
Maybe that's more about my recent experience recognizing that the angry me isn't the real me. And I'm much more comfortable now.