Sunday, June 5, 2022

Transitioning

What have I learned from transitioning? I can’t overstate the biggest joy, which is really seeing yourself. I know I look different to others, but to me I’m just starting to look like myself. It’s indescribable, because I’m just like, there I am. And thank God. Here I am. So the greatest joy is just being able to feel present, literally, just to be present. To go out in a group of new people and be able to engage in a way where I didn’t feel this constant sensation to flee from my body, this never-ending sensation of anxiety and nervousness and wanting out.

When I say I couldn’t have ever imagined feeling that way, I mean that with every sense of me.

-Elliot Page in Esquire


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This could be said about multiple instances of transitioning.  It sounds a lot like the Christian "to be born again."


Maybe that's more about my recent experience recognizing that the angry me isn't the real me. And I'm much more comfortable now. 

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